Somedays are harder than others!
This morning I was reading on all the different blogs. Trying to get a better understanding on all that is going on with the adoption process. It seems to be a mountain ahead and a really big one at that. I know that each step is one of prayer.
It seems a fine line to walk daily. I have fallen in love with a baby that is so far away. My entire family has fallen in love. Sydney does not understand time and therefore yesterday she was saying "Mom she is not comming!!" I asked her please so not say that!
We have to have that longing in our heart. I believe that it is necessary for have that emotion to pray and wage in the war. BUT if you go too far then the longing hurts and it feels like pain and NOT Fair. You can not let the spirit of fear come in because that is just an attack.
Reading so many of the different blogs. We are all in a war for these children. So many different problems from lost papers to just simply nothing going on! Being at a stand still. I think being human we all look to see how far or where others are in the process to gage where we should be. Sometimes I feel that I do not understand why I am being told that I have to wait to go see our little Hannah when others have gone or are going and they were obviously not told to wait.
It is hard to want to know how your baby is doing. When will things start in her process and not get a reply.
In all I know that we are all in a process of learning something different from God. He is ruler and in control of all things.
Sometimes I wish for a glimps of what he sees.
Today while praying God really let me know that I am not allone. There are so many in the same WAR.
We must win! We have God on our side.


What is happening today is part of a larger process!!
lynette

Better to Love God and die unknown
than to love the world and be a hero
Better to be content with poverty
than to die a slave to wealth
Better to have Taken some risks and lost
than to have done nothing and succeeded at it

E Lutzer
I love different quotes if you come to my house
you will find them written down all over. It is like treasures
left everywhere and they are found at just the right moment.

Our Dossier!

Our dossier is in Haiti and waiting for pick it up!!
Thanks for your prayers it made it.
Now the process gets started for Hannah.
I created a list of things that need to happen. As we get the approvals I will post them completed to let you all know where we are at!!

Most of all I trust God in all that needs to happen!

THANK YOU!

Lord thank you that you go before me
thank you that you know where today is leading me
thank you that you are in control
thank you that you will not give me more than I can handle
thank you for speaking to me....
thank you for the awesome family that I have
Thank you for an amazing husband
thank you for being our provider
thank you for allowing me to lean on you
Oh lord thank you for your word!!
Thank you that ALL things work together for good
thank you that you will never leave me or forsake me
Thank you for giving me the desires of my heart
thank you that your love is everlasting
thank you that we are more than conquerors!
Lord thank you that I am forgivin!

Father I thank you that your favor is comming in a new way. Your favor is opening doors that men say are impossible to open.
I thank you for preparing the way!
In Jesus mighty name!
Amen

Lord I will take every thought captive to the obedience of christ
2 corinthians 10:5

pictures of Love

I know without a doubt that someday these pictures will be treasure!! We feel so blessed to have a missionary to take them for us. Hannah with her family. They really do love her but baby #12 is just too much to feed.
They are learning that us Americans like to smile for the camera. I am so happy that they understand that we will give baby Hannah the very best. Right now the missionary has been in the states and I was able to send a couple of little dresses. When she gets back to Haiti she is going to take more pictures for me. I cant believe that I will get pictures of her in something that I picked out!!! You know we named Hannah as well and the family calls her by a name that we gave her. Amazing.
To explain a little why the family has her it was suggested that the mother nurse her a little while to get her off to a good start. It was really sad to hear that after she took Hannah is was not nursing. She said that she did not nurse any of her 12 children. How sad...... The missionary wrote and told me that it is just a poor backward way of living. You would think that with no money they would at least think that nursing your child would save a little money. What is even more sad is that the mother could get her tubes tied for FREE! She wont because some woman told her that after she did it her back was in pain! She believes that the two are connected and will not do it. This family is very different in that all 12 of the children have the same mother and father. Something very rare.

You know I am getting to really learn a lot about this family. With all these pictures and the scrapbook that I am making, I look at the pictures and pray for each one of them. They have no idea how much our family really does care.

This same missionary is one that worked with my friend threw there adoption and we have many pictures of Haddassah before she came with her family. For some reason I felt it important that Hannah have the same. These girls will grow up together and we did not want one to have more from home than the other. God is SO good.

I look at her family and I want to help them so much.
some times we feel like we are adopting a family because we will never stop praying for them.

Maybe some day if God sees fit we will be able to meet them.

Threw this God is doing something big in my heart. I have a heart for Haiti and want to serve in any way I can.