Our story started like this

Last summer I will never forget the night my husband looked at me and said "Lets adopt!" I looked at him like are you crazy. I could not believe what just came out of his mouth. I said "UH NO" He laughed and asked "well then lets have another baby" I said "OH NO" and I cant. I got my tubes tied after having my last baby. After my last baby there is not possible way that I would ever in my right mind put myself through all that pain again. Everything hurt by the time I delievered baby number 4. I will never forget going to the hospital to get a little help to get me started and Kenny my husband asked "should we be doing this?" I started crying and said "oh yes we should!"
I love all my kids with all my heart. My oldest is 18 Kristy Lynn, 16 about to be 17 Benjamin Michael, 11 about to be 12 Dillon Ronald, then the little one 4 Sydney Mae.
I am a stay at homw home. I love being free to spend the day doing what ever the lord leads me to do. My husband and I are owners of a 80 foot fishing vessel. He is the captain and has two crew. God in part of his masterful plan helped us purchase the boat in November of 2006. It was cool. We named the boat "GOD'S WILL". It is funny because people would tell my husband "Don't you know that it is bad luck to change the name of a boat?" He would laugh and say "hanven't you figured it out that I am not a believer of LUCK"
We are Jesus lovin people. God came into our lives about 9 years ago. Transformed our family completely. I would not want to live a day without God in my life. He is the very essance of who we are.
I t was in september of last year that I went on a womens retreat. God spoke into my heart about adoption and I could not wait to get home to tell Kenny what had happened while I was away.
I told him the news and his reply was "Cool" " start looking into it"

At first we thought that it was China that God was wanting. I had no idea how one little girl would change everything for us. Some dear friends that we go to church with just adopted from Haiti. I remember praying for them and honestly wondering if ever they would get a child. I would ask how things were going for them and it was always something!!! I dont know how at times they did it. Then the day came I remember at church when I stoped her and she said that she had been up late the night before planning and buying the plane tickets for a lady named Barb and the baby to make the travel to portland! I remember that God spoke to me. "This is a miracle!!!" I wanted to cry for her.
Soon after comming home from the retreat I told my friend that I was feeling like God wanted us to adopt. She was excited for us. We began to email back and forth. She was great to get me started.
At the time our church was planning a big Harvest party. We have a great church family and a lot of fun together. I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT NIGHT. This little sweet thing, new to all these people, came to me and gave me the biggest hug. I could not explain only that it was from God. I have never had another child every give me that kind of hug before. Through the night we played games and had a great time. I just kept watching her. She was so beautiful. I watched my husband interact with her. God was showing me something awesome. On the way home I could not get her off my mind. The next day I was on my way to town when God spoke to me "HAITI FOR HADDASSAH!"
I could not wait to tell Kenny. I did and he thought cool. Yea we can do that. This little girl will have a person in our little town from the same place. OK> Well I really wanted to talk to my friend to see how she felt. I was happy that she was happy too. So she gave me the information for Reach Out to Haiti. I recieved an application October 17 2007. Looking at the application I was really overwhelmed. I do not like paperwork. Lord help me now. Honestly it took me a couple of weeks to really look it over and make a plan on what to tackle first.

I got things going and well christmas went by. Febuary went by. I really started getting ants in my pants. I asked my friend about getting assigned a child and she just assured me Gods timming would be perfect. I kept telling God "OK Lord, why are others getting assigned children soon after there applications and we just are not." We are getting pretty far in the paper work. It seemd as if when I would email Barb she really did not know who I was. I tell you I was not getting it!! But we will just keep pushing on. Then one day at church my friend came to me and told me that Haddassah's mother was going to have another baby. WOW> what would this mean??? We really did not know. We fould this out from a missionary that lives near the family. She, the mother did not want the baby because she was not going to be able to feed her. We felt lead strongly to email Barb to let her know all that we learned. It did not take long and the connection was made. Barb took her to have a ultrasound and it was a baby girl. WOW> God is AWESOME!! Haiti for Haddassah and it is a SISTER!! I think that my friend and I were blown away. There was a big reason our applicaion was missplaced for a long time. I know in my heart that we would have been assigned a child and it would not have been the right one! So God being who he is had to have a paper missplaced for the right time.
Soon after we were asked what name we would want to give the baby? She was due any time. My littlest one Sydney and I had chosen Hannah and a friend of mine chose Faith and there is was Hannah Faith. I emailed right away. I tell you the next morning I recieved the email from Barb. Hannah Faith was born March 13 and 3:00 in the afternoon. I yelled shes here!! Honey she is here! My husband did not have a clue. When I explained he was excited too. I had no idea the emotion that I would feel. It was a burst of the mother in me that said "I need her NOW!" Oh boy, God had a lot of work to do with me for the next couple of weeks. What do you do with all this emotion. All I thought about was Hannah. I just wanted to see her. I just want to hold her. We want to love her. And we can't. All we can do is pray. Oh I feel blessed to pray for her. Now we finally have something to work for.
Well many things in the last couple of weeks have had to be rearranged in my head. God loves my baby Hannah MORE than I do. He wants the very best for her. God wants her to be a part of this family. I have had to put it in the right perspective. God has to do this. I simply can not. With all my might I can not. BUT I , we can pray.
I remember one night getting a really difficult email from Barb. She is sweet, short and to the point. "You know this is going to be a gamble" she wrote. Oh, I had to call my friend for some encouragement. What do you mean GAMBLE> I am not a gambler!! Well Lord you have some work to do here. God sure has been good to keep things hidden until the right moment to show me a clear picture. This process is hard, but I can give it to God. Now it is time to put into practice what all these 9 years have been for. Training the Lords way. Sometimes he gives us difficult tasks but he promises never to give us more than we can handle.

Some time ago the Lord spoke to me and told me to write down all that he had become to me.
I Wrote.
He is my Father
He is my Mother
He is my Lord
He is my King
my provider
my protection
my deliverer
HE IS IN CONTROL
I TRUST him completely
my teacher
His Grace is enough for me
His love penetrates
FEAR NOT for he is with me
He is MY strength
He goes before me
and now I know that he is going to teach me that he is FAITHFULL

This is our journey of Love. This will be a battle we must fight in the spirit realm. My must pray without ceasing. We must claim these children as children of God. They have been chosen for a purpose.
God has given us so much evidence that he is charge and it is part of a much bigger plan.

Gods love!!!